Your Shining Star

Posted by: Dytalus; January 31, 2010; Creative Works

Sleep. Work. Eat.

Sleep. Work. Eat.

Sleep. Work. Eat.

A day in, day out, monotonous routine which this poor man had sunk into. Working a job he hated, to put food on the table of a family who treated him like shit, all because he had been told to “Learn some fucking responsibility”. Where had his dreams died? Where had his shining star faded?

His days spent in College? Perhaps. That was where reality had slapped him hardest.

His days living with his parents? Perhaps. That was where he had been told to grow up.

His days as a married man? Perhaps. That was where he had been forced to change who he was.

I wonder where I’ll be in ten years?

Probably in the same damn place. Working for some useless prick who didn’t know the difference between a CD-ROM and a DVD, much less how to fix the crappy plastic boxes their company churned out. This man had once had dreams of becoming a musician, of making movies. He had never wanted money. He’d never wanted a big house and a fast car, he just wanted to live his life in an enjoyable manner. After all, he was only going to get one chance, wasn’t he?

Life has a habit of crushing one’s dreams.

The world had caught up with him. College had stripped him of all desires to be anything more than another man in a suit, his family had stripped him of all desires to go his own way, his wife had stripped him of everything which stopped him being the perfect fucking husband. What was this man’s name?

Does it matter? Does he matter? Probably not.

Did he have any other options? Could he have turned out any different? Perhaps. If he hadn’t been so much of a coward, so afraid to stand up and take responsibility and make good on all the promises he made himself. If he’d asked that girl out in high school, if he’d gone ahead and set up that business, if he’d just fucking stayed focused on something for longer than a week. But it’s all gone. The shining star has gone and nothing guides his way.

Sleep. Work. Eat.

Sleep. Work. Eat.

Sleep. Work. Eat.

Die.